Ten tiny toes...Ribbons and Bows...We marvel at the wonder
as our sweet Tessa grows!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Tessa's Story

Written so eloquently by a dear friend...


Interview with Whitney Bynum
EC535 – Writing to Inspire
Marvin “Kelly” Johnson
Baptist Bible College and Seminary

Imagine for a moment that you have been given the news that you are very sick. You were given no indications of this illness; you have no idea how this disease will hurt you, nor if there is any hope left. Throughout your life you have faithfully served God and have felt his blessings warm you, but upon hearing this news you feel alone for the first time. Even though everyone around you is offering support, you are still stunned, frightened, and face an unknown future. If this thought sends a cold chill down your spine, now realize that it is not you that received this prognosis, but your 3-month old daughter.
Darin and Whitney Bynum had been married almost six years and were anxiously awaiting the birth of their second child.  This young couple, in their twenties, were unaware of the journey they were about to embark on. Their first child, Parker was almost two years old and like any young boy, he was constantly full of energy and kept his parents busy. On April 8th, 2010 at 10:19pm, Miss Tessa  Bynum entered into the world at 4 pounds, 15 ounces and 19 inches long. She was only 2 weeks early, but was very tiny. The doctors reassured the worried parents, “she’s just small”.
In the weeks that followed, Whitney felt in her heart that something was not right. Call it Mother’s intuition or just worry (Whitney’s self-proclaimed middle name), but she knew that the symptoms that her daughter was displaying went beyond the colic that doctors had diagnosed her with. She was constantly in prayer asking, “for God’s help for her to accept Tessa for exactly who she was and to rest assured that her life was in His hands”. In the days and weeks that followed, Tessa did not seem to be growing and was constantly fussy. Each day was a challenge, but the family was hanging on, “until that magical 6-month-marker when babies typically grow out of the colic” stated Whitney.
In July of 2010, the couple decided to take a quick weekend trip from their home in Oklahoma, back to Amarillo, Texas. Tessa had been fighting with an ear infection and had already completed one round of antibiotics; so the couple made an appointment with their pediatrician before leaving town.  Whitney describes the doctor’s demeanor on this visit, “his approach was very different.  All we knew was that we had a sick baby on top of the existing colic…but he seemed to look deeper.”  After consulting with other physicians, the concern was that this young child had developed meningitis, as it appeared her ear infection had spread.
The worried parents were directed to the hospital across the street, where Tessa would be admitted to the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit. Scared, frightened, and confused, Whitney describes this moment, “Little did we know, when we walked in the 10th floor unit that Thursday morning…that it would be the beginning of a week-long stay that would change our lives.”
The results of the meningitis test proved negative, which began a barrage of other medical procedures in an attempt to find the answer. Throughout this stressful time, Whitney insured that every possible moment was spent holding Tessa, surrounding this tiny, fragile body with motherly love. It was during this time of bonding that Whitney first noticed that Tessa was having a seizure, “She was resting in my arms when all of the sudden her eyes started repeating a typewriter motion for about 15 to 30 seconds”.  As a result of this new symptom, a CT scan was ordered for the first thing in the morning. Several hours later two doctors and a nurse appeared in Tessa’s room. The nurse would stay, while these young, frightened parents were asked to accompany the doctors to a conference room.
“There are no words to describe the pit in my stomach and the ache in my heart during that walk down the hall.”, stated Whitney. In this meeting her and Darin were told their daughter had severe brain damage and, “The nature of the damage was calcium deposits on her brain…consistent with the damage to a fetal brain from a virus called Cytomegalovirus”. According to the centers for disease control and prevention, “Infection with cytomegalovirus (CMV), a member of the herpes virus family, is very common. Between 50% and 85% of the people in the United States have had a CMV infection by the time they are 40 years old.” . This disease is normally not the cause for any concern and once infected, the body retains the virus for life.
Whitney had never been exposed to this virus, but somehow had become infected while carrying Tessa. Although she was unaware of the symptoms herself, this virus was unknowingly attacking her daughter.  Only now was she aware that this virus could have damaged Tessa’s eyes, ears and brain.  Immediately she began to blame herself and she explains that she was flooded with questions, such as, “what have I done to my baby … I did this … this happened to her because of me … if I had already had CMV in my life, this would not have happened to her…therefore the fact is, this happened because of me”. It was at this moment that God held onto this faithful couple and sustained them. Whitney explains exactly how God revealed His face, “He delivered me so quickly and put before us a path, a plan, a direction…and ultimately a journey of faith that now involved a precious little girl that would change our lives in ways we could have never imagined. “
These two young people were both children of preachers and had accepted Jesus at a very early age. Whitney describes their spiritual position before this experience as one where they, “found ourselves settled into more a routine of religion than engage with the Lord”. After hearing sober words from two doctors, Darin and Whitney found that the path God placed them on had curves. Instead of deciding to give up, they have grown closer to each other and to God. At the very moment when many couples may withdraw, Whitney talks how her and Darin found strength in each other, as God has designed. “I won’t ever forget in the conference room, after being told that our 3 1/2 month old daughter had severe brain damage, Darin reaching over and grabbing my hands with the tears just streaming down my face, looking me in the eyes and saying to me ‘you knew…you knew something was wrong’. I remember crying and asking Darin ‘how are we going to do this?’ … he said ‘We already are!’  He reminded me how we had been ‘doing this’ for 3 ½ months now… we had been learning how to love Tessa through all her tears and all her pain without even understanding the degree of what was wrong.”
Throughout the days, weeks and months that have followed, this family has received tremendous support. Whitney describes how her Sisters immediately drove to her, “My sisters have been the strongest support system of love and encouragement!  I would not be where I am today, on this journey, without the Lord divine provision of amazing sisters.” Pastor Sam Bynum and his wife Karen are Darin’s parents. Whitney adds how much they provided help when things seemed incredibly dim. “And of course….my amazing in-laws.  Sam and Karen’s love and support has been the most incredible thing to experience. The biggest thing that stands out in my mind was the almost 2 months that Karen came and lived with us during the week, each week for almost 2 months, to help us care for the kids after they were unexpectedly kicked out of the daycare they had both been enrolled at.”
Help and encouragement has come from outside the family as well. Recently Whitney’s employer, SandRidge Energy, heard of Tessa’s condition. Through a program known as Change Together, the employees collected money in piggy banks throughout the company. This was gathered together and provided Tessa with her very own iPad, which is used for rehabilitation and therapy. Others have provided gift cards, meals, financial support and even a last minute gift from a co-worker that provided a special swing for Tessa which was not covered by insurance.
Their story demonstrates strength despite overwhelming challenges, but the real encouragement of this family is the family itself. Tessa’s older brother has always treated his baby sister with “tender love and kindness’. Whitney describes the interaction between the children, “Parker has asked in his own gentle way why she doesn’t crawl or walk  … Parker understands but it doesn’t make a bit of difference.  He LOVES her.  He would do anything for her…and he does!  Parker is by far Tessa's biggest motivator!”
In her little life, this young lady has provided inspiration, motivation, and love for everyone she comes into contact with. Her smile is infectious and is genuinely one of the happiest babies God has brought into this world. Her parents define God’s mandate to trust in him. When asked what the prognosis is for Tessa, her mother explains:
 “Well, we do know that we have eliminated “can’t” and “won’t” from our vocabulary…that’s for sure!  Because of the resiliency of a baby’s brain…the possibilities are truly endless.  I was just thinking about it the other day…Tessa is 19 months old and just now exploring the world of rolling over…when you think about it, that’s really only about a 12 month delay.  THAT’S NOTHING!  Tessa will meet her milestones in her own time…and we will be there to celebrate each and every one with her.”
“Our goal is, and always will be, to love her, care for her and encourage her.  We always hope that she stays healthy, because things can definitely get challenging and a little scary with her health at risk, but we won’t live in fear for if or when she does get sick, we will celebrate the health that she has, marvel in the accomplishments she makes, and thank the Lord every minute of every day that this is a journey that we have the privilege of being a part of!”
Darin, Whitney, Parker, and Tessa, may the Lord bless and keep you. It is my prayer that I may tarry long enough to see Miss Tessa proclaim Christ at her Grandfather’s church.

written by Kelly Johnson 11/2011

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